A letter to God
I, woke up this morning and had you on my mind. I thought I'd write you a letter. You know, I have a problem showing how I feel. I, try to be tough and let everyone think I don't breakdown and become a spectacle of myself.Lately, I've been rethinking about this and maybe I was wrong. It's tough being strong for others avoiding my own hurts, joys and letting someone see me show other emotions which make me uncomfortable. It gets lonely. I thought about times when I saw friends and strangers let loose. Letting loose, showing that crying is no so bad. It doesn't mean that a person is weak if they cry. I, with your help want to let loose at times and not be afraid to show myself . Why shouldn't people "cry for happy"?"Cry for Happy", when we receive a card from a friend telling us that they appreciate our friendship. "Cry for Happy", seeing the face of your first born grandchild. "Cry for Happy", when told a friend doesn't have cancer. "Cry for Happy", doesn't mean we are weak. Getting a special warm, loving feeling of joy that makes you so happy that tears of joy suddenly wet your cheeks. God, I, know that there's "Cry for Sad".This I don't feel comfortable and need more strength to let me to let loose. Who wants to feel sad and cry, let's pretend nothing bothers us. It gets lonely. Crying when all of the money a person has won't pay all of the bills, asking for help. How not to get upset and cry when your relative dies and you are the relative appointed to handle the will. To be in control. I'm tired and need to go a different path. I, know you are always here for me in good and bad times. I, guess I need to really accept that I hurt and cry and not go into a corner to hide from people when I can't handle everything thrown at me. How can I give comfort to others when I don't accept comfort and allow myself to cry?Please God, help me to show my true self who isn't weak if I cry.
Sometimes it catches you unawares,
tears welling up without warning.
No matter how long ago,
if you have sadness and grief locked away
it will eat away at you.
Let it out.
"We need never be ashamed of our tears".
Has there been a time that you held back the tears when you needed to let loose?